Malaysian Working Mom Blog

6.12.20

Motherhood is lonely journey


Hi there!
Thanks for click this link and read my motherhood experience.
No one ever told me how lonely this journey will be.
I remember the day my mum told me she wants to go back to Sarawak after just one month my pantang, she told me" I can't forever depends on her, I am a mother now", I cried silently every day, my mum sound so kejam right? but thats the reality, I need to be independent from now on. The moment my mum went back, I really feel so lonely and I finally feel the motherhood journey is so lonely. I have my husband but sometimes he doesn't understand what I really feel, he told me im think too much or whatever. Then, I started to just keep it myself.
I don't really have a friend that I can share my experience. I had few friends but sometimes I feel hesitate to talk because I know they also busy and trying their best to figure out their life.
I mostly google or read articles on motherhood apps.
For the support system, I have my husband that sometimes clueless, that's understandable because we both new this thing. I don't blame him for that.
My family? my siblings? Sometimes they support me but we can't connect most of the time because they at kampung. 
For church community, since I do not manage to connect with fellow mums due to pandemic, I joined the chat group but common sense I will never sharing my life there. I don't blame for this, I'm new so not really feel open to talk about motherhood journey.
In the positive side, in this lonely time, I just share what I really feel to God, only God understand me. Maybe that's why this journey like this because I really need to close to God.
I read Bible more and I have devotional plan everyday, thats why I feel a bit "stable", tanpa Tuhan, I think I will be crazy.

To new mother out there, if you feel lonely, you can reach me out, i am willing to be your motherhood friend.
You can whatsapp me,+60192872023(Aya)

Love,
Aya


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