Its been 2 weeks we sent our son to our new babysitter aka my uncle's wife. I feel relieved when they accepted him. I can't imagine sending him with other than family or somebody that I don't know.

Leaving your baby with someone else can be nerve wracking. Its not because we don't trust that person but its not just you and I'm afraid my baby is too hard to handle.
So, here are few tips to ease your nerves.

Talk about it with your toddler
This tips I got from government nurse I met during my early day as a mom. Maybe she realized that we always having a hard time whenever we went for checkup at clinic. So, she told me " Whenever you bring your baby anywhere, always talk to him/her about it earlier.". Maybe you thought your baby/toddler won't understand but from my own experience, its really work!
Example : Whenever we will go for check up, I will tell my son " Tomorrow we will go to clinic for Sibal get injection from nurse ya! Don't worry, it will hurt a bit but that will good for you.".

Do trial run
I don't manage to do trial run for my new babysitter but I'm glad our new babysitter able to handle and care for my son even his first day with them. I am so GRATEFUL! 
If you have time or please make time to do trial run. If you don't understand what is trial run, its you leave your baby with your babysitter during weekend/you take off day to practice it.

Get organized
The night before we send our son to our new babysitter, I feel emotional. I packed his things like clothes, pampers, formula milk and etc. I feel like I'm sending my son to school. For me now, for my son things, I always have double of it. 

When I type work relax, I laughed at myself. 
To be honest, I am not relax when the first time I leaving my son with babysitter. Not even after one hour, I already wanted to go see my son hahaha. But, my friend and husband said, no need later he crying again.

Hired babysitter that you know
I never had experience sending my baby to babysitter before because we had our lived in babysitter since my baby 2 months old until December 2021. Its so hard to find babysitter nowadays, there a lot of bad news about babysitter and I feel so scared. So, that's why I always go for babysitter that I know. If possible, you must hired babysitter that you know.

I hope these tips helping you on journey leaving your toddler with babysitter for the first time.
If you have any comment or question, you can comment below.


How to leaving your toddler with babysitter for the first time

26 January 2022


Finally its Friday!!! Yeahh!

That's mean MY SON MADE IT! We have been sent him to our new babysitter's place since Monday. Haleluyah!

1st time separate with him. Just after 1 hour, I already want to go see him again... adoi!
I'm really worry about him.
At the end of the day, when I went to bring him back, he is so happy. The feeling is so good!

It's Public Holiday so I sent him a bit late. Its supposed to be we must go out around 6.30am.
Again, he was crying when I say bye bye but I need to be strong. I sent him even in Public Holiday because I want him to really get familiarize.

We need to wake up very early because we want to beat traffic jammed. This is our challenges every morning now. But, its okay, new year new challenges! Go go!

We wake up super early today. We want to reach earlier so when we continue to go to work, we can made it! 

It's finally I can say " MY SON MADE IT". 
Puji Tuhan!!

Next post, I will share the tips leave your kids with babysitter for the first time. It's from my very own experience.

See you next post!

Our son made it! | First week with new babysitter

21 January 2022


Last year, I didn't write any goals I want to achieve on my blog. I just try to remember it on my head but by end of 2021, I couldn't even remember it. I feel bad because I can't do reflection when 2022 come. So, this year I will write it here so I can come back to it early 2023 and do reflections.

By end of 2022, I will achieve,


Lose my big belly

Grow my hair, no more cut short

Take care of myself more


Stronger emotionally

More confident than last year

Worry less, pray more

Be more brave to face anything in my life.

No more dwell in my negative thoughts

Be positive always


Active side income ( Unit Trust, Gift Box, YouTube, Blog and 7AM reseller)

Consistently track my spending

Pay off my bad debts

No longer use credit card

Give more


Remember to wish my family member happy birthday

Celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary somewhere nice

More focus on my baby development

Call my parent once a week

Be more patience and less ego

Work hakiki

Always do my best

Do beyond expectation

More confident with my knowledge

Side hustles 

I will do my best on my side hustle this year. I want to earn income more on side hustle so I can quit my work hakiki. Because I want freedom!

Unit Trust Consultant

- Target sales this year RM1 Million

- Move to next level by this year

- Teachable

- Consistent

- Never give up

- Recruit 5 new members

7AM reseller

- Target sales RM700

- Consistent

Personalized Gift Box Biz

- Plan ahead the content

- Market more

- Consistent


- Write more on my blog

- Learn and apply SEO on my blog


- Target subs 1000

- Upload every week

- Earn from Youtube start this year.

Material in our house

Meja Ikea diluar rumah

Tambah rack Ikea dirumah

Throw/donate/sell my unused stuffs

This is what I want to achieve by end of 2022!

Yang berkomitment,


My 2022 Goals

13 January 2022


Hello mama!

I recently bring my son back to our hometown for the first time ever. 

Travelling or flying with toddler is not that easy. You need to do your own research and pray that it will work. From my experience, I do a lot of reading before we fly from KL to KK for Christmas holiday. Since this is the first time my son will flying, I was feel so anxious. I'm afraid he will "mad" kid during flying time. 

So, here are some tips flying with toddler based on my own recent experience.

#1. Bring snacks

To be specific, bring your toddler favorite snacks that he will never resist.

For mine, I bring lollipop and keropok. I feel guilty about this but I want to make him comfortable and happy during flying time.

#2. Packing in sleeping aid

I totally forgot to bring travel pillow. My husband just dukung him for whole time. I feel bad. So, please bring travel pillow and comfortable jacket for your toddler. He will sleep soundly.

#3. Plan for activities

Your toddler won't sleep the entire flight especially long flight. The longest flight we bring our son was 2 hours and thanks God, he sleep until arrival so he won't need any activities after he wake up.

#4. Change diapers before fly

No matter what, don't forget do this. You can change diapers in the toilet, but that will be very uncomfortable so to avoid that, change diapers before fly.

I hope these tips help your upcoming flight with your toddler.

If you have more tips, you can share with me by comment below or reply my stories.

Thank you for reading!

Happy New Year 2022!

Tips flying with toddler

07 January 2022

Being a parent is not an easy thing but it's feel good. I don't know how to describe it.
When you make a decision to get married, you also supposed to be ready to be a parent. 

I know, some of the couples is is choosing to be childless and I totally respect that decision because the one that being parent is you. But, as a typical Asian person, I think everyone wants to be a parent or fancy the word " want to have a kid" after getting married.

As for us, we are so blessed because after 1 month getting married, we are expecting and after 9 months, we finally have our first child together. It's the best thing ever happened to me. 

But, the behind the scenes being a parent, no one tells me about it. Everyone show the good side of being a parent but as I recalled, no one really told me the another side. But nevermind... not everything kena bgtau kan?

We start our year 2022 with BANG!
I mean, we had a new year nightmare, it's not happening during the night but the early day of new year. I've been avoiding to recalled and write the story on my blog because when I think about it, I feel so scared but now, I had a different perspective, God is always God and God will never leave us in any situation.
Without further due, here is our new year 2022 nightmare story.

01.01.2022, 5.30am(Approx)
I wake up early because I need to pack our things. We will go back to KL at 4.30pm today. At the same time, my stomach feel so painful. I went to toilet many times already.

01.01.2022, 6.30am (Approx)
I make a susu for my son and wished him "Happy New Year, Anak!", he grabbed the botol susu and drink it. I kissed his forehead and went to kitchen to eat breakfast with family.

01.01.2022, 7am ( Approx)
My stomach getting so painful and supposedly we are leaving 8am. But I told my brother, maybe we leaving a bit late because my stomach feel so painful. Around this time, my sister went near my son and jokingly said " tak payah balik lah Sibal, just stay at kampung with Oko ( Datuk & Nenek). My sister said " he sleep so deeply and you guys want to leave already" pity him. 

On 1.1.22, 8.30am ( Aprrox)
Around this time, my husband want to wake our son but suddenly, he told me, kenapa Sibal ni? I looked at him and my son, our son is kejang and he closed his eyes.
Oh my God!!
I called my mom and sister.
We are panicking...
Don't know what to do...
So, we went to our neighbour' house...
Some of them had experience handling this kind of situation.
We quickly prayed for him and I looked at my son because my sister hold him, I am too weak to hold him.
I look at my son, he looked so pale and a bit blue!
I already started overthinking and start to feel like I want to faint. We bring our son to our tukang pemo (I don't know the word in English/Malay)the  and he told us, he seems dehydrated and please quickly bring him to clinic.
 The nearest clinic is 3 hours from our home and nearest hospital is 6 hours. I feel so nervous a long the way to nearest clinic.

01.01.2022,9am (Approx)
I don't remember exactly the time but we rushing go to the nearest clinic.
My aunt is working there so I called her beforehand just in case the clinic is closed because its public holiday after all.
Along the way, I keep pray and lap my son. He is not wake up, he just mamai. Thinking of that now, I really feel scared but my only hope is God!an 

01.01.2022, 11am ( Approx)
After travel 3 hours +, we arrived at Klinik Asap. Directly bring our son to emergency.
Again, our son kejang, not just one time but two times. But, we are at clinic so I feel a bit relief. But seeing my son kejang is worst thing I ever see.

01.01.2022, 2pm ( Approx)
My son will be transfer to Hospital Bintulu. It will took 3 hours to go there. I feel the journey too long. My husband and my son using ambulance and as for me, I travelled with my family. I feel so sesak di dada during this time. I can't believe whats happening... I really try to be strongest mom this time.

01.01.2022, 5pm (Approx)
We arrived at Hospital Bintulu.
We missed our flight but I can't stop thinking of my son. He admitted to Paedatric hospital. Due to SOP, just one person can teman my son and again, this is so much painful and discomfort to me.
I went back to my sister's home with heavy heart and keep praying that God will take care of my son and husband.

We separated by this door.

My heart feel so heartbroken when my son can't walk properly this time. Its the effect of the medicine the doc given to him.

Due to SOP, only one can teman our son and its so heartbreaking!!

Hanya mampu tengok dari luar.

After almost a week, our son finally discharged. But, we need to do follow up at KL.

My son with his wonderful aunty.

We are finally back to KL.
We going back with heavy heart.

We arrived at KLIA2. Thanks to God.

I am stronger women!!

We had such a nightmare new year but we believe that God will be with us this year.
Thank you for reading until the end.

Stay tune for next post.

What happened to my son?
I want to write here but its too long already...

See ya!

Our 2022 New Year Nightmare that really challenge our parenthood

01 January 2022

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